The art of tossing and catching or manipulating objects, keeping them in constant motion.
– Robert Crego –
I have never tried my hand at juggling although I have been tempted to. The agile ability that jugglers reveal whilst constantly adjusting to balls in motion simply leaves me in awe. I cannot help feeling that if I had mastered this skill earlier I would have been more apt at handling the week that’s just gone by.
Having offered to help my elderly parents pack up in the far-north of the country, I left home to travel the almost 2000km distance with the best of artistic-luck. My intentions were to keep my primary mental focus on my art, and to use the time I would be physically packing to reflect on art-related issues. Perhaps somewhat too idealistic I was nevertheless distressed when I returned home a little more that a week later, not having even as much as opened my books to draw or write. Putting pen to paper this morning I realized in dismay that the logging date indicated a 12 day silence.
My sincerest apologies to all …
However, in writing my journal this morning I made the surprising realization that I was indeed creatively stronger than I had anticipated. When I initially started writing my blog I felt incredibly vulnerable on a creative level. But it was the vulnerability itself that I felt other artists might relate to, and that by accepting the process of sharing that vulnerability, two things might happen: I would not only face my own demons, but, more importantly, that the exposure of being creatively lost would help other creatives. This morning’s pages spoke of the creative strength that has come from this process:
Perhaps, in a previous time, I may never have bounced back, let alone so immediately. Perhaps it would have set me back to a place of darkness, of no return. It is a place I know well – not a place I wish to return to.
Jugglers make the art of juggling look easy and uncomplicated. The dexterity associated with juggling is deceitful. It views as an act of simplicity, yet takes years of continual practice to achieve a level of mastery.
What can this teach me? That I need to be patient and kind to myself as a visual artist as it takes time to develop and grow creatively.
And that dropping the balls is part of the process of learning.